She Donned Flowers, work in progress, 8"x8" on canvas
It's been two - TWO - weeks already since I've left work. It's time for a few more random thoughts and observations on how my road to transition has been so far...
I thought I'd spend the first two weeks cleaning up my office/studio. Nope. I spent it kicking off creative projects, catching up on odds & ends, and making art. A lot of art. In fact, my committing to Art Every Day Month is giving me a welcome focus, maybe even bumping laundry from its spot as my top key productivity indicator <gasp>. (Check out my previous checkpoint for the deal with laundry if you don't know what I'm talking about.)
But today, first day of week 3, I spent about four hours scrubbing the office/studio and it felt. good. More on that to come in another post.
Hubby and I did our first monthly budget sans my paycheck and it wasn't that bad. I surprised myself at how upbeat I was during the entire thing, knowing full well that I was starting to tap into the savings I'd built up.
I was upbeat right up until I started thinking about a few months down the road and where my savings would be then if I hadn't found a source of revenue. Then I started quietly freaking out at the thought of not knowing where that revenue would eventually come from.
But I caught myself before the downward spiral set in and discovered a new mantra. I gently crooned it to myself as I shuffled around the house: "It's OK to not know. It's OK to not know. It's OK to not know yet..." And then I felt better.
Steph 1. Money fears 0.
I am practicing trust - in the Universe and in my own abilities, patience and letting go. A lot. Being still and listening to my intuition is key. I suspect faith in myself and in a Higher Power will play a large role in my transition.
I planned to give myself the month of November to NOT think about specific revenue streams or creating work, but I'm already starting to think of possibilities. Pieces of the puzzle are becoming clearer, I'm just not sure how they all fit together. But it's OK to not know yet...
I am loving this being-at-home thing. Seriously loving it. I already have a blissful routine going that involves morning coffee, morning pages, connecting online, writing, maybe some project work and then art-making later in the day. Sometimes I even throw in a little domesticity like dishes or dinner!
I love it. I'd be lying to you if I said I didn't.
Till the next checkpoint...