snow shadows no. 3

“When we know the seasons of things, we can feel their timing, their readiness. There is less pushing, more waiting to see what is necessary.”

~ Wayne Muller, Sabbath, Restoring the Sacred Rhythm of Rest

Last year I rejoiced in creative highs, produced more art than I'd ever produced and let the extrovert in me soar. I felt growing confidence in my artistic abilities, was chest-deep in active pursuit of goals and experiences, and pretty damn proud of myself for achieving them.

It was downright exhilarating.

Wonderful as they were (and they truly were!), these creative pursuits came at a cost of other important life goals of mine that involve nurturing friendships, hearth & home, and my connection to the Spiritual.

So I decided to slow down and soften my grip.

Today, with the exception of one previous commitment, I have no hard set goals in sight. On some days it feels disorienting to my ever project-planning left brain, but one day at a time, I experiment by countering my instinct to continuously strive with intentional pause, choosing to put urgency aside in favour of languid moments of being.

There's a lot less pushing, and lot more waiting to see what is necessary.