Life is Full (or, Where I'm At These Days)

Candle Cozy

candle cozy on the windowsill

Life is full – not always easy, but full. I am grateful.

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During these past few months I've felt the familiar yet unwelcome pull of the downward spiral and kicked into self-care mode, grateful for the tools I've picked up along the years to ride the wave back up. The tide has turned and I feel much lighter than I have in weeks.

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I've been making art, a lot of art. I am 11 weeks into a Monday-Friday studio practice and four weeks into an online art class that continues to stimulate and overwhelm all at once. Through all of this I discover, learn, and expand my artistic comfort zone.

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Without really setting out to do so, this Monday-Friday studio practice seems to have spurred a secondary practice of dedicating weekends to home, hearth and rest. It feels nice, and peaceful.

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Birch, Spruce and First Snow

birch, spruce and the first snow of the season

More and more I find solace in nature. Moving to our new home in June has renewed my connection to nature in a way that is taking me by surprise. We are close to nature trails and walk them often. I feel an especially strong connection to trees and birds.

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I am experimenting with food that leaves me feeling good and energetic vs. sluggish and stuffed. I am trying many new-to-me recipes that are delicious and leave me feeling how I want to feel. I cultivate awareness around what I eat.

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I feel as solid as ever in my wanting to create work that aligns with my values, despite taking what felt like a giant step backward in my journey by adding another day to my office work week. Ironically, this extra day in the office is what prompted me to start my regular studio practice. Perhaps it was a step forward after all.

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I feel a shift in direction or approach to my journey to meaningful work, something subtle that I can't quite yet pinpoint. I am increasingly turning to my intuition for clarity. It feels like a standstill, but I trust that it will lead me where I am supposed to go. It may just not be on my schedule, that's all.

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Cassie, Couch, Cozy

Cassie, couch, cozy

I am falling deeply for our new home. Bit by bit I create nurturing spaces for us and for those who visit. I sometimes forget that we've been here less than five months, it feels like a lot longer.

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I continue to sink into Slow and approach life with intention. I feel an urge to soften, whatever that means.

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Though on some days it's more obvious than others, I navigate it all – the highs, the lows and the in-betweens – knowing that I get to choose my response and co-create my experience. This comforts me.

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Yes, life is full and I am grateful.

Because in my book, full trumps empty any day.